In September 2022 my mom passed away unexpectedly.
I did not know how much this would affect me. By that I mean that I have always been someone who could deal with emotions fairly quickly and put it all into perspective. But I could not do that with is grief.
I found myself diving further into depression. I call it functional depression because I was able to do just enough of my job to not fall completely behind, carry on showing up for people who needed me, and hide it from my children and friends.
When alone I would curl up on my couch or bed and sob. I had started smoking again and was getting into a void that I could not see the light at the end. I stopped doing any energy work and stopped doing really everything. I found little to take joy in. My heart ached for my mom, my very best friend. I didn’t care about anything.
In August 2023, I was on my deck smoking and crying. I knew I had to change something so, I am not religious but very very spiritual, I looked up closed my eyes “I need help Lord, I do not know how to move forward”
I walked back into my house, picked up my phone and brought up my Reiki Master Teacher, friend and mentors website. I booked her next available appointment time. He answers me in ways I cannot explain.
The day of my appointment was the first time I put into words what I have been feeling and going through. I laid back on my couch, it was an online session, and let Marni do what she does so well. I felt the tears flow as my body released all the stagnant energy that it was holding and that no longer served me. I felt the blackness that had enveloped my heart and the dull ache that had become so normal over that last year start to clear and ease. I finally started to see the light at the end of that dark tunnel.
It took a few minutes after the session before I could sit up. About 5 minutes later I had to go to the bathroom, I am not going to go into detail here, but it was very healing. We talked at length and as we did my whole world shifted. Everything came into focus. That dark cloud that had hung over me blew away and I could see where I was headed.
I do energy work everyday now. I am a Level 2 Reiki Practitioner, a level 3 professional Animal Communicator, a Reiki Master Teacher (with classes starting in October) and am active in my life again.
I set Reiki everyday and have clients from all over the world. I am excited about my future and where it is going.
Reiki not only changed my life but, I firmly believe it saved my future as well.
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